As some of you whose been up-to-date on my journal you may have noticed that i've been whimsically ranting out about my so unfortunate life at work, my striving yearn for creativity, all-of-a-sudden blasts on the political government, fashion, family, my inconsiderably silly motive of busting physical aspects of people that have been a part of my life till this very moment. I state right now and admit that I am a self pittying-inconsiderate-inhumanely impossible-undecided bitch that has no care in the world except for herself! I have this certain attitude of blaming everything on other people than actually blaming myself! This is one aspect my parents had and still do tell me numerous times. Mothers' know best, that' what they say, again and again, I just had to realize everything that my mother has been telling me over the past years whenever i got the scolding from her, "Natalie, one day you will feel the hardships of life when you are older, you will know what it feels like to work for a living and striving to become the best!" Of course, just like the usual teenage kid that looks to lectures and ranting parents as self-denial overzealous pupils, I didn't give her lecture or saying, one bit of thought. Well, he who laughs first doesn't always get the last laugh, this is very true, I am now experiencing what it feels like to be an adult! Work at least 12 hours a day and still strive to be a somebody at the same time! Proving your worth is something when you really want to excel in certain areas in your life.

"Mom, i'm sorry if i ever disregarded everything you've been saying! I am a walking mockery that will rise from all this hardships and be that somebody you've always aspired me to be!"

I had a row with my brother this morning, for some reason we just don't see eye to eye on certain things. Things like waking me up whenever he does, (which is always, he is a light sleeper and wakes up before everyone does) cleaning the house after making a mess out of it, tending to certain responsibilities in the house like being concerned for his upcoming examination at MAAP but as always he'd rather stick to playing rome on the pc and watch cable tv all day, eat like a pig and sleep like a slob!

Blogging is turning into a major crucial issue these days, especially once your privacy is invaded, such stories like the 2004 flight stewardess, ellen something, queen of the sky blog on blogspot caused her to lose her job because of certain entries that indicated most of her exquisite travels and scandalous details that resulted in a lawsuit battle with delta airlines on the grounds of loss of future wages, invasion of privacy etc. OUCH! I, too, had my own petty share of the so-called "invasion of my privacy" during 2007 when some idiot invaded my blog, printed everything out and caused me almost my education. She printed all of my blogs wherein some of my scandalous moments and intimate memories were written. She then showed them all in a file to my father who had no idea of my doings in manila! Imagine your private life invaded! being preyed on and there' no one to blame but yourself and cyberspace, ever since then i started keeping most of my blogs to my friends only and other useless entries to strangers that would want to find ways of ruining you!

I finally got my paycheck and totally gonna buy me a pair of gladiator flats, a moisturizer and a dress perhaps. I'm also thinking of venturing into a business that i have total interest in, except i'm really thinking hard about it because a lot of time and thinking have to be dealt with first before forwarding into it! grrrrrr.....